marzipanfish

i drew her in my mind, smiling with eyes like snowflakes in the sun. glittery and cold, encompassing, consuming my every thought. hair dark as raven feathers skin glowing as if she hides from the sun. i saw her in real life, my head hanging upside down, feet dangling over the edge of the couch "hi," i said. she waved and smiled and winked. it felt like too much. it felt like zero gravity was separating my spine and my bones. it felt like electricity in my brain. it felt like beetles in my stomach, unpleasant and pleasant at the same time. i saw her in my dreams, pacing, thinking, staring at the ceiling as though it held the answers to eve